The Ending of the Universe

I'm fucking retarded. 3rd time in 3 semesters.

Which lesson am I supposed to learn? Try harder? Try less? Don't try at all? Go for it first?

Slow to love. Slow to let go. Slow to learn.

I can't even tell if it gets easier to let go each time or if it gets harder.

I know it becomes more difficult to start each time. Its a cycle of despair.

Slow start. Loss of interest/Extraneous factors. Heavy hit. Slower start. Quicker loss of interest/more extraneous factors. Heavier hit. Slower start. ad infinatum.

Melancholia is the best form of motivation. The engine roars.